A New Song...

I fold the bed
Far from effortlessly
I raise my head
Hungover from last night's memory

I wear the coat
The one with your fragrance over the sleeve
I lift the thought
Of the best thing that's ever happened to me

I catch my train
I had enough change
Maybe we should have spent a little more away
On that wishing well yesterday

To mention your name
Is to stall the madness, steal all its energy
Our star looks the same
But the light it shines now looks on so differently

The wines that I taste
Without your laughter lose their only appeal
I quicken my pace
For fear of reminding myself now I'll never be free

As I catch my flight
I had enough time
Maybe we should have spent a little more away
At that wishing well yesterday

Without a word,
The sun will wake you, it fits you so perfectly
Without a word,
I know you'll wake and save every smile for me
You should not have to handle goodbyes anymore
So I'll wave goodbye, goodbye, goodbye out the door

Your silhouette
Is blurring everything that I see
I'm such a wreck
And here I know it's all that I'll ever be

As I lay in bed
And I lose my head
Darling I think I may have spent it all away
At that wishing well yesterday

Without a word
The sun will wake you, it fits you so perfectly
Without a word
I know you'll wake and save every smile for me
You should not have to handle goodbyes anymore
So I'll wave goodbye, goodbye, goodbye out the door

Without a word
The sun will take my place as your company
Without a word
I know you'll wake and save all your love for me
You should not have to handle goodbyes anymore
So I'll wave goodbye goodbye goodbye out the door

You should not have to handle goodbyes anymore...
I'll whisper goodbye, goodbye, goodbye...out the door

Church Fall & Pumpkin Carving...

A few pictures from our Fall Festival at church on Sunday, and my pumpkin I carved.

The Rowdy's Go Pumpkin Huntin'

Tonight Me, Reese & Cameron went up to Oakes Farm Corn Maze in Plainview. When we got there, we took a hayride to the pumpkin patch to find "The Great Pumpkin". Then we headed back to the barn for our trip through the Corn Maze. The kids had a great time and so did I.

My Weekend...

Friday night was our church Mens Group campout at the river, to be such short notice,we had a really good turn out.
Saturday night was the UT game...lousy. My new favorite team is the (5-0) University of Vanderbilt. And yes, this implies that I am a fair weather fan. So... Go Commodores!
Sunday was my first Sunday school class...and nobody showed. So I was pretty bummed about that, but I know it will take time, and I know that in a church of 600 members there has to be more than 0 young singles.
After church I headed up to Cades Cove to meet up with Reese, Mom, Aunt & Uncle & Zach & Cameron. Got some really good pictures and had a fun day with Reese and the family in the loop. Me and Reese got home around 10:00 Sunday night, she was pooped and so was I, but it was all worth it. God is good! Here are some pics and a video of Reese watching some deer that were grazing in one of the Church cemeteries.

So...what has been happening in my life...you ask...well, here go's

"Father, break me, split my heart open, pour me out, open my eyes,
my ears to your will for me, for my life. May I decrease,
so that you may increase, be a lamp unto my feet,
help me Lord Jesus"

So, let me outline this blog for you.

First,
If you haven't seen the new movie Fireproof, please, please go see it. Married or single, it has a lesson for everyone, and can be applied to all walks of life, in any type of relationship. It debut last weekend at Number 4 in the box office, which boggled Hollywood... My only response to that, the scripture is more powerful than your script Hollywood. Think about that.

Second,
My Mother and Step-Father are separating. After almost 12 years they are walking away, throwing in the towel, however you want to put it. To me, they are simply giving up and being cowards. But I have yet to, and will not let there decisions affect me. That's that.

Third,
Our pastor officially resigned his position on Sunday morning. Sending a shock wave through the church. I am torn, I am confused, but most of all I am broken.

And now, my attempt to capture all the thoughts
and emotions surrounding these points:

I have been asking God to break me for a long time now. And he has finally done so. And honestly, I was not prepared for just how broken I would be...Let me explain.

I have recently started a new college age / young singles Sunday school class, my wife and I have recently started singing in the choir, we have recently made some new relationships with others in church, and it was all based on us feeling that's what God wanted for us, and I still believe that is true, But I had the audacity to stand up in God's face, point my finger, and say, "You break me now, right now, REALLY"
Gosh, how stupid and selfish am I.

"Didn't you ask to be broken?"
Yes Father, I did.

This just reminds me that God does provide, but he does so in His time, not ours.
But in the brokenness, is a closeness to God I haven't experienced in a long time, and still my prayer to Him,
"Father break me more"

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (Matt. 11:28 KJV)
But seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Matt. 6:23 KJV)

One small step for man, one giant leap for me...

So, I've been wanting to start a blog of my own for some time. And I have finally done so. And boy, do I have alot to blog about. I'll be telling all about it in the days to come. So long for now.